Wait

What do I do now?

Everything is crashing around me

How do I get out?

Mountains of despair have covered me

Why does it feel so hard?

Just one foot in front of the other

Wait…

I just want it to stop, just for a moment

I want to rest, be still, heal

But the torrent of shit keeps coming

Where will I find strength?

My lineage has betrayed me

How am I supposed to lead?

The path that was once so bright is lost to me

What is the lesson?

My heart and spirit, crumbling

Wait…

I just want some peace for a moment

I want to think, understand, make a plan

But the torrent of disappointment is steady

Is it I who has been the cause?

All my intentions washed away, out to sea

Have I tricked myself into thinking I’m good?

Lies and doubt drape across me

Have I brought all this pain onto me?

Retribution for my wretched soul is collecting

Wait…

I just want no other thoughts for a moment

I want to breathe, see, be

But the thoughts just keep coming

And there is nothing more to do, than wait…